What should I do?

Hari ini mama ceritain ke gw tentang orang China yang jahat
tentang banyak HTS dari China datang ke Indo
terus ada hipnotis berkali2 di Jl. Asia oleh orang China
ma2 gw ngom kalo gw bagusan ke taiwan aja
so gimana neh?
what should I do?
padahal gw udh apply kesana
gw bener2 bingung...
gw bener2 takut...

Rencana awal gw seh mo ambil program bahasa 1 tahun
tapi gw kurangi jadi 1/2 tahun.
Jadi tadi sore gw sms aJo (yg bakal sama2 gw ksana) gw bilang ke dia ttg hal ini
terus dia nanya ma gw ttg tmn skamar nanti mau ama sapa
gw ngom "mendingan ama lu aja drpd ma org yg gw blum kenal kan bahaya tuh...."
tapi dia bilang ke gw kalo dia tuh mau ambil program 1 tahun
jadi gmn donk?
gw bingung bgt

After that, gw di telpon ma temen gw yg lain lagi
dia tuh mau lanjut study ke taiwan
n dia ngajak gw
gimana neh?

Sbnrnya pd awalnya gw brencana mo ke taiwan
tapi gw ga tau napa malah apply ke China
menyesal pun ga berguna lagi
jadi gimana neh?

gw bener2 bingung
what should I do?

my fave lirik

Because of you

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too farfrom the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to plau on the safe side si I dont get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

neh lagu fave gw
napa gw ngom fave?
coz memang ini gw punya isi hati
gw yg selalu tersenyum d dpn orang banyak
gw yg selalu mencoba untuk tertawa
gw yg selalu humoris
tapi ga da yg tau kalo gw tuh misery banget
my life is so complicated
really2 complicated